I just finished reading another book brought to me by my wife who looks over the high school reading list and picks titles for us. It was Change of Heart by Jodi Picoult.
It was a moving book and brought me to tears...and also helped me to get in touch with my heart. It is so easy in the regular every day world to lose your heart. Life becomes routine and getting something done is all that matters. It is easy to forget people...humans...relationships. People are what matter.
So what does this have to do with God's will? For me, I need to be around people. I need to be involved in people's lives. My heart longs for connection with others on a basic level. That is part of God's will for my life. It's easy to forget and easier to overlook when others are not as quick to go to that intimate place with you.
Does it really matter where I work or who I work for? Does it really matter what I do for a living? Or is the most important thing to be connected to the people who are in life with me, daily and otherwise.
While I was finishing up the book I got a call from Nissa. She asked if I would like to go to a harvest party in Reuben's class tomorrow afternoon. She had called him and he was thrilled that she would ask me. So was I. I want to connect with my grandchildren, to have them know my heart, to have them know me...and in so doing know some of who they are. I'm looking forward to being with Reuben tomorrow and then getting to bring both he and Maddie home from school.
God's will. Sometimes it is easier to let it sneak up on you than to spend so much time laboring over it. Am I doing it right? Am I listening carefully enough? Am I pursuing the right path? Seems like that puts more on me than on God to let me know his intentions for my life. I think I'm going to let it sneak up on me.
I'm going to pursue jobs and opportunities and relationships and let God unfold the details. He knows his will better than I do and is able to communicate it to me in spite of my hard head, my less than capable hearing and my bend to do my own thing.
Where do we go today, God?
